Home Remedies

I have had a really interesting week. At the weekend I had become really frustrated with myself, I miss being at work and I especially miss being there at Christmas time, Christmas at our school is a glitter filled crazy chaos, this year I have been so sad to miss all the cake and biscuit making, the visit to Church, decorating gifts to send home and creating Christmas cards that wont ever stand up on their own as they are so heavy with glue and glitter, if, at the end of the day, the classroom wasn't covered completely in glitter and tiny pieces of pretty paper, then we hadn't had a good day. I miss seeing the change in their behaviours as they get nearer to Christmas, good or bad, they are expressing that they know something is different. there is nothing more beautiful than seeing pleasure in an autistic child's eyes.
I spent all Sunday thinking about all the things they would be getting up too during the last week of school and found myself making the decision that I wasn't going to wait around for this big black mark to move off my central vision, and declared that I would be signing myself back to work in January.....this was met with a big fat NO from my family. Feeling slightly disgruntled I took myself off to bed in a foul mood and sat in bed surfing the interworld! 
After a while of finding nothing but crap, I tapped in 'How to get rid of floaters' the stuff that I already know came up, but then there was this webpage all about home remedies, so, the first two important factors are to relax and avoid stressful situations,(haha) then followed some food types, diet changes, avoid watching television or spending too much time on the computer, sleep well, yoga, drink plenty of water, eye exercise and massage....
Out of the list, eating the foods listed will not help my colitis so I cant change that, sleep well never happens at this time of year, but I will try, relaxing and avoiding stressful situations...seriously, this year has been the most stressful year I can remember, yoga..yup I can do yoga, drinking more isn't a problem I can do that too, I don't really watch TV and I can limit the time spent on the computer. That leaves eye exercise and massage, so I gave it a go...well, fudge me! you would never have said massaging the skin around your eyes would make a difference, it also said to massage you thumbs..YES YOUR THUMBS, and it works, honestly, every so often throughout the day I rubbed the top of my thumbs and my vision became clearer. I don't know where all this yoga and massage originates, but these people really know their shit, it also said the massage your big toes, this also  was pleasantly surprising. Through following these guidelines I have noticed this week that I am definitely coping better with the floater, it hasn't gone away, but my brain seems to be starting to see through it. This has put me in a completely different place, I have now learnt to explore different things, have faith in my ability to change the course of events, don't ask me how it works, I have no clue, but I am very happy to be standing in the middle of a busy Waitrose massaging my thumbs, because not only is it helping me focus, the massage seems to relax me too, which in turn is helping with the anxiety crowded places cause. 
With all this new found confidence, I took my first topic assessment for the Psychology I am studying, I had already had a little chat with myself and had decided that if I failed the first test, I would give up as I clearly wasn't brainy enough for re educating myself. To pass you needed 80% or above, if you got below the 80 you needed to keep trying until your score was high enough....wellll, I am massively excited to say I came in at 90% on the first try, although I only got two questions wrong, one of them I knew the right answer, but it was one of those split seconds when you doubt yourself and opt for the wrong answer, but whatever it doesn't matter cos it appears I am quite clever after all!
And I continued thinking I was clever until today....this afternoon actually, I popped into Hitchin with Mum on the bus, we wondered around slowly, watching all the manic shoppers stuffing massive amounts of food and drink into their trollies, and we were feeling reasonably smug as we didn't really need to be there, I picked up a 9 pack of loo rolls and was happily swinging them beside me as I rocked up to the till to pay for them, I am pretty sure the woman in front of me had little beads of sweat forming on her forehead as she paid the £345 shopping bill. I happily paid my £3.50 for my loo rolls and Mum and I swaggered towards the exit and out. Only OUT was dark, night had fallen really quickly and we made our way towards the bus stop. I really wasn't feeling it, there were people rushing around, traffic everywhere as folks knocked off from work and fled for home, but we got to the bus stop fairly unscathed. When the bus rolled up, it was a double decker, which as usual sent a ripple of excitement through the old folks, I could hardly make it out as it pulled up because it was absolutely filthy, the windows were covered in dirt, sitting down stairs I couldn't see a thing out of the windows. 
As we trundled along it suddenly dawned on me that I had no idea where we were, Mum was struggling too, but reckoned she would know when we reached our village, which she did. Mum gets off at a stop before me, which sent a shiver of panic through me as how would I know when it was my stop??? In her wisdom, Mum says its OK, your stop is four stops up. Well, its a bloody good job I had a back up plan cos the bloody bus didn't stop at any other stop, as no-one wanted to get on and no-one wanted to get off....thank god I had clocked a oldie who I know gets off at the stop before mine so as soon as she was off I pressed the 'bus stopping' bell and luckily it ground to a stop at the correct stop. Again I hadn't considered that sitting in a brightly lit bus would have such an effect when stepping off the bus into the darkness. I had to stand still and let my sight adjust to the change in light. I felt a right prat standing in the dark with my toilet rolls with people rushing past me, I felt the need to explain why I was just standing there, Don't say it....Why didn't you take your cane???? I dunno, another day another lesson learnt I suppose!
I don't suppose I will write again now before Christmas so I wish you all a very Happy Christmas xx